This Is It

I'm in.
I dont know whether I should be happy or confuse.
I will be extra busy from now onwards.
So should I regret at a later time.
Knowing I will be starting to live a very unhealthy lifestyle.

But on the other hand,
I can wait no more.
This might be my only chance.
One and only chance which I can never get it again nor will it come flying pass me like that, ever.
Did I make the right choice?
Tell me somebody please.

If only my mom was here.
She would have maybe encouraged me on.
I need that kinda encouragment cause seriously, I am heading nowhere.

I am an adult now. Not really but I am living on my own now.
Gotta start making choices for myself.
Mama's not here anymore.
Grow up silly girl.